Just trust yourself, then you will know how to live.– Johan Wolfgang von Goethe
Purpose: To continue pushing my comfort limits, experiment with physical reactions, help establish positive routines, instill self-disciple and break food and sedentary-ness addictions.
- Daily quiet reading time
- Daily meditation or prayer
- Daily exercise
- Daily writing time
- Weight-loss to below the 160lb mark
- Continue self-care routines started in my 5-day fast.
Starting Weight: 167
- 1.5 cup cinnamon tea
- 1 liter well water
- 1/2 liter Snake Juice (1 tsp salt, 1 tsp No Salt added to 1 full liter of water)
- 1 heaping tsp diatomaceous earth
Nitty Gritty: Mid-morning, I had one small solid bowel movement and a short time later, a small loose bowel movement. Both were quite unsatisfying and I look forward to releasing the heavy steak meals I consumed this weekend. I was quite belchy from about 7-9PM after drinking some Snake Juice. I also started getting a mild headache at about 9PM.
Exercise: Iris and I walked a little less than a mile to our post office, playing in the snow on the way home. It was cold and windy and seemed to be as much exertion as I could handle for the day. Though I dressed for my workout, I never could bring myself to get up and push play on the 80-Day Obsession video.
I was very short tempered, impatient and angry today…all while being aware of it. At one point, after being short with Iris again, I looked at Tony with tears in my eyes and said, “I can’t seem to control my emotions.” He smiled and asked what he could do to help but I didn’t have an answer.
I don’t feel the excitement and determination that I did going into my 5-day fast last week. The question was raised whether or not I wasn’t technically breaking my fast last week by ingesting a bit of coconut oil, cream and such, and in my moody state, I completely let it derail my mental fortitude. At times, it takes very little for me to spiral into a state of utter despair and feeling like an abysmal failure. BUT, instead of curling up and shutting out the world, I actually sought out some motivation. That is a change in behavior that I can be proud of.
I have to remember this is MY experiment, MY body, MY words, and MY experience. I”m sharing it in very limited forums and while it would certainly be lovely to know that someone gets some use out of it, I’d like to be open to all feedback. I need to toughen up a bit and not let innocuous and actually quite innocent questions derail my frame of mind. I am a social media wimp, to be certain.
I spent some time in quiet reverie this morning, trying simply to breathe and notice my thoughts coming and going. It’s such a challenge. I caught up on my Simple Abundance reading (by Sarah Ban Breathnach) which was lovely as always, and I also did two different guided meditation sessions. One was Living the Law of Attraction, a Paraliminal by Learning Strategies and the other was a weight loss hypnosis session with David McGraw. I went so deep in both of them I felt like I was asleep.
My indulgent weekend trip to Winnipeg took its toll in how I felt today: I was moody, unmotivated and lethargic. A poor diet with imbalanced protein to vegetable ratios has caused bloating and constipation – though I’m not struggling to pass anything…it’s simply not arriving. Minor heartburn, belching and headache are also underway. My mood was definitely the worst part of today.
The best part was feeling the love and connection with my sweet man continue after our wonderful weekend away.
Physically, I do hope the detox goes quickly this time. I plan to drink a lot more water and Snake Juice than last week. As for all the rest, I look forward to returning to that happy place of motivation and determination like the end of my 5-day fast last week. It was wonderful.
Day 1, often the hardest part, is nearly in the books. Phew!